Monday, April 2, 2012

April Resolutions

I'm extremely mad at myself. I spend a lot of my time thinking about things I should do, or want to do, or need to do. I'm introspective, and think about wanting to write in my journal. I want to read more books, so I make a plan for how to read more books.

WTF???

Get a pen and write in the journal!

Pick up a book and read!

I'm about to turn 36, and I'm tired as hell of being introspective. Since I know it's not possible to change my nature, this post is a get-your-happy-ass-in-gear message to myself.

I've gained weight, and it sucks. Instead of feeling bad about myself, or whining to J. about how none of my clothes fit, I ordered a bike trainer. I'm going to buy a bike this weekend and I'm going to ride it in the mornings and/or evenings while reading a book.

March 2012 is the first month in a very long time that I didn't finish a single book. Nothing held my interest. I set aside three books:
The Night Circus, Devil in the White City, and 11/22/63. All these are well-reviewed books, and one of them *should* have grabbed my attention, but none did. I think the biggest reason for this is that I have too many distractions at home now: tv, computer, J., the cats, eating dinner, etc. I am going to make time for reading by doing it while I'm riding my bike each day.

I'm just sick to death of talking about doing things - making a plan for doing things - but then not actually *doing* them! That is going to change. And since we're at the beginning of April, I'm calling these my April Resolutions:

I will read one book per week.
I will ride my bike each day.
I will write in my journal at least once per week.
I will turn off the tv/get off the computer and *do* something.
I will quit smoking.

We'll see how it goes.